emotion(s)/lacking in Trust

I’ve come to realize my impulsive emotions in using this realm of communication being wordpress. How I lack so many things as a woman and strive to be more confident in the Most Confident and wise in times of crisis or no crisis. But I persist on a habit that isn’t my true calling, an impulsiveness of bitterness and hurt. But alas!! Those things are behind me, they’ll probably poke their unwanted heads out in my low points but I will curse them and keep moving forward because He has so much more for me. Also, this isn’t a cry for a pat on the back. To say, “Congratulations! You’ve finally realized!”, it’s just a realization and I need no one to recognize my faults and/or accomplishments, the Lord will congratulate me on those things. I will confide in the One I love. Woe to my heart for you are so deceitful at times. But then again, true to some.

Augustine

“I was astonished that altough I now love you…I did not persist in enjoyment of my God. Your beauty drew me to you, but soon I was dragged away from you by my own weight and in dismay I plunged again into the things of this world…as though I had sensed the fragrance of the fare but was not yet able to eat it.”

As a follower I seem to distance myself without noticing or meaning too. This is my struggle. I am lacking and always will be but by the Grace of my Lord I am saved and ever so Thankful. I can not wait to be One with my True Love.
To not feel unworthy. To not feel helpless. To not feel a failure. I struggle from my own selfishness and from the want of the things that don’t fill me. Although I pray against them almost everyday they still tempt me. I loathe distraction and the things under the sun.

You are steadfast and forever faithful.

Grammaire des arts de dessin

“Le dessin est le sexe masculin de l’art; la couleur en est le sexe féminin…L’union du dessin et de la couleur est nécessaire pour engendrer le peinture, comme l’union de l’homme et de la femme pour engendrer l’humanité; mais il faut que le dessin conserver sa prépondéronance sur la couleur. S’il en est autrement, la peinture court à sa ruine; elle sere perdue par la couleur comme l’humanité fut perdue par Eve.”

-Charles Blanc

me oh my.

That residence is foreign to me.

As is a lot of other things. As of right now.